Dear Linda,
You can see that people have masks that they interchangeably portray, and you can see that in yourself. Remember, you have lenses through which you can see, while many only know how to look with Their Eyes. You afford for yourself the perspective you take; if you do not see something correctly and mis-judge others, you make it more than obvious what your weaknesses are. Your understanding of your reality IS REAL, as are your over-estimations/ disappointments/ power/ influence/ frailties.
Take what you have learned and do not repeat your history and lead yourself in a circle as some honorable self-sacrifice for those you're willing to make excuses for (even if they're worth it). Time is not linear; the longer you repeat your mistakes the farther you misguide your potential from what you can (and must) accomplish later.
Namely, do not run. Your absence does not save anyone from your demons. If you know the weakness of others, and can play it to make them feel as though they've won something, let it not be because you sought some glory for it. You are winning even when you let others believe you've lost and you do not need anyone to know it nor anything to affirm it. Hold to what you believe, in yourself and in God - play chess for what can be learnt and you will win for you know Who will be watching.
Love is not some metaphorical battlefield, we are not soldiers, your heart (or pieces of it) can not be buried (or resurrected). These are poetic allegories your mind conjures to follow the dichotomy of love that you've been taught you can not move past. Where there is war there is an enemy, an "other"... a perpetrator and a victim. If you have the foresight to analyze this of yourself, than you have the mind/will power to know that entertaining these notions will defer your progress and wealth in EVERY way.
Do not use time or money as currency of your wealth when it comes to love. Do not accept time, wealth, or money as your price for your love. Real foresight, real investment, real love is living and growing when those that matter to you are healthy, happy, productive and closer to God - including yourself.
Accept that your mind may not know the answers it is not ready to know/behold. Keep your faith in God, for everything you have ever asked for has been granted. Think of God when you lose your patience or your temper... and for the Love of God, PRAY.
Those that love you will understand and appreciate your presence as well as your absence. Love with your Self in the heart of God for IF those you love now were meant to walk beside you, they will not run either; but if they were meant to adorn your path, accept it. Not doing so will cost you all you currently stand for, everything you've not run from, and everything you are striving towards. If those implicated in this statement do not know that it is they you are referring to, or can not afford being beside you given how long a path you're walking, whether YOU like it or not, love DOES NOT APPLY to THAT person.
You are spreading yourself thin. It's true that the things/ones you lose sleep and appetite over are incomparable and crucial to your progress/happiness now; but the thinner/ further/ longer you stretch, the less of you will there be left to accomplish the goals you are preparing yourself to attain. Follow the advice you would give to others - take care of self for your self to care for others.
Please know that it has taken heart and sincerity to honestly write this letter... and all I've said, though seemingly harsh, I sincerely mean for your benefit alone.
With love and sincerity,
Linda
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